"why is there a blackhole in the toilet?!"

Uhhh..just to not let my journal stay stagnant for too long.. This is nonsense though, please ignore

I'm trying to escape my busy world for a while by reading a few fics here and there and I had the urge to post my favorite FB status for the past year:)) (I'm conceited, I know)

And Happy Birthday to nikuta I miss you Nin-nin nee-chan! It feels like it's just yesterday when you had your debut, and now you're 19 already! Time flies! I hope you're always happy and healthy! I'm always here for you! :))

those with * are not mine, I got them from either a song or a book. The rest are mine though.

One time while riding the train home, I realized something important. Holding onto the railing was my red numb hand, holding so tight that I had to let go even before reaching my destination because it already hurts so much. Just like holding onto someone important so hard that you start hurting yourself, you will one day find yourself letting go even if you know you might tumble down without him.

I remembered something I realized way back when I was in High School.. I was so fascinated with Seven Days' love story that I reread it over and over again..that's when I realized that Shino Yuzuru's personality and mine are the same. That's a little sad though..because I don't even know if there is a Seryou Touji existing in this world.

You cannot hate something in the first place if you don't feel something for it.

It's easy to find people who can laugh and play with you, but it is rare to have a friend who can open his/her problems, frustrations, and insecurities to you and show you the best and worst that there is...because with that barrier of self-insecurity and mistrust gone, that someone will face life head on forever with you.


“Rumors can destroy relationships, that is not impossible but it is unlikely worthy to waste something nice for something so stupid.”

Being funny is different from being rude. If you try to be funny by being rude, then you're not being funny at all.

But let's not be blind. What you saw your friend doing to you, you are actually doing it right now too.

*Nothing showed a person's true breeding better than how they reacted to unexpected situations.

That moment I stepped out of the church, I bid you goodbye in a peculiar manner that you didn't even think that I'm finally letting you go.

*"It is easy to be on good terms with 40 people, but one person..If you want to have just one special friend..that's really hard."

Is it bad to ask God to stop my feelings, because I couldn't stop them myself?

You promised me that you will be the first one to remind me when I start to change, and since I don't want you to reprimand me and I promised too that I will not change, I did my best to stay the way you want me...or are all these promises just a one-sided illusion?

You acting like that just made it all harder for me to forget.

You make me so happy for a second, so happy that I feel like flying and then next you would suddenly drop the bomb and throw me back to the ground. Stop doing that to me, will you?

*I'm gonna have it all. You AND my dream. I'm not gonna sacrifice either.

*"They say that seven days is enough for a dream, but for me seven days is enough to fall in love."

*Perhaps I'm a little lonely,
You feel somewhat more distant than usual.

She said, “you're so good at masking your real self that you could even hide an illness with a smile.” It's not hypocrisy, I'm just trying to be polite.

I saw you staring at me asking for something I cannot give.

*“Why do you follow me when I run away, even though you run away when I follow?”-HRE

SOME people often fail to notice that they have some things that others do not have. They fail to notice that what they call trash meant so much to other people. They fail to reciprocate the love that was offered to them freely. And they fail to appreciate easy presence and easy blessings. I just wish that it's not always like that though. -__-

I don't think that I should be the only one threading on this thin rope. I could reach my own limit too and snap at you, you know. Just saying though. and my back hurts terribly by the way.


Back to the hilarity of my life. Bye! :D

another sem is about to start and I think i really need to focus on this one. well I managed to become a dean's lister last sem but I think i need to work harder now, I just don't like people saying that because I'm a first year it's natural that I got high grades, mah, I want to maintain it throughout so i promised myself to do so. but it's a hard thing to focus when you're mind is all over the place especially when it lingers on your fandoms so ye, I need to take a break for now. I wanted to apply for the scholarship since my parents were struggling *whacked* LOLOL no, I just want to prove myself:DD so goodbye for naaaaaawww!!!!

ja ne!:DDD

Oh my God! I sort of had this urge to write a smut in a rest room cubicle or in any small room >.< but then I'm on a hiatus so I won't write it so will someone write it for me please? :))

yes, I guess I should stop for now.. I'll still be here around but I wouldn't post anything anymore for now, do I need to tell the reason?? If you ask me I'll tell you but I'm kinda lazy to type so ja ne! I sort of told you the reason already:)) I guess the only way I'll write again is for you to pressure me in going back or to continue an unfinished story but you need to be quite convincing:))or maybe someone I extremely like asked for a fic:))

minna, I was planning to print JUMP pictures because I got extremely envious with those people I've come across with in the university with the pictures of their favorite groups on the back of their IDs so yeah,I was planning to print but I want to ask for your opinions and perhaps the picture itself, since I'm afraid to print lq pics since they don't appear nice on photo paper >.< onegai? arigachuu!! and kisumai's pv's been released in the philippines and I'm seriously afraid right now, I mean it only mean one thing, they will air ikemen desu ne in the philippines in the future and I don't want what happened to kpop happen to my precious jpop too>.<

meanwhile, I was sad because a lot of people are sick right now, and I made a paper crane in desperation to plead god to heal them. I don't know, desperate people do crazy things right?.

here's one for ate nin~nin:))




as you can see I was supposed to be studying but then there's just too much things on my head so yeah, and also one time I folded a crane and wished for my best friend's presence since I was terribly sad that time, and he texted me that day too!:)) I guess paper crane works when you're desperate:))






I missed you my ojou-samas!!!>.< I couldn't post my stories right now since I still have a critique paper to be passed this week and I just couldn't let that slip off carelessly.:))i have a yutochi and okajima and a new i am series character! guess who!!!!i hope i can post them soon>.<

I've got fairly high grades for prelims but PE (volleyball) really sucks, I mean I'm so not good with it that ahhhh!!!TT.TT

going back to the pictures. I want to print one for the whole JUMP then for inoo, hika, yabu,yuto,keito and the BEST :)) what would be the best pic to print?:)))

I just talked to my old friend C!! [oh as if anyone remembers~] anyway he's the 'Chii' on my old fic, I can't stop loving you and you know what?? I think I'm going to make a sequel!!!!waaa It's been on my mind lately but I can't seem to find the inspiration, and it came to me earlier sooo, yaa wait for it ne?:)) And I still have two pending fanfics..

Little Ryuu's Dream: the secret past of Hey! Say! JUMP-obviously, it's about the 'lives' of the members before they got discovered.:)) ye, let's put it that way.

and I am Chinen Saya:A Sad Encounter and A Happy Memory..

I'm planning to write another I am..series but with different persons, you see I am Chinen Saya is quite different than the ordinary fics because it focuses more on the hidden feelings of a certain character, it's quite reflective and personal so.. if you want a certain I am..one-shot please tell me who and I'll try to do it:)) ne?:))


oryt:)) how's life?? my life sucks!just kidding, I can't believe that I'm depressed this early part of the year!gawd! my high school friends told me that I'm changing. The 'ever-so-cute-funny-cheeful' kathleen is missing they said. I don't know why but they said I'm not as cheerful anymore. and one time..

on the phone
Mia(a friend):...so how many friends do you have now?
Me:..hmmm..I think 1?
MIa: oh my god what's happening to you?!

and she was like 'oh they're missing all the fun if they don't know you', 'mingle with them!!'


Though I really, really, really appreciated her efforts, I find it quite irritating because I don't do things because others say soo.. soo let me be.. people change.. but I think I'm not really changing, I'm just depressed that time that's why I'm quite anti-social..but we'll see..
aye I'm blabbering again.

School's busy!! oh ye, before I don't care about our senpais since I'm surrounded by friend but now I think I have more senpai friends than my blockmates! since I'm helping in the student council.. aye..

now school stuff..
I have a report on Philippine radio during war~this is really tricky because this is for my major.
then,a lot of things to do in Economics
then, Myth of Sisyphus for Literature [which is very easy for me!haha I'm conceited again!] I just love greek myths:))
then, A DEBATE for sociology about the sociological theories, this is quite confusiiiiiiiinggg!!:))

aye soo many more a quiz on ETAR,LIT,JOURN,THEO and soo much more!! quite hectic this week then the student council will have a meeting on friday..I wan't to go home early!!

Last week I was pissed because R is supposed to visit me but it was postponed because of my sched mou~T.T


ja!!!!:)) Let's continue to support Ryuutan!!Update me while I'm away and I'll continue to pray for my lovely little Ryuu:))


Kath:))

I want a video of Higher perf!!is there one? and I'm addicted to love so sweet right now!!!:)) gomen ne I wouldn't be able to post as much stories as before~actually right now I was just stealing a few minutes as a break from my never-ending [not story:))] project working sooo ja gotta go!!!:))

rant.rant.rant



I think I should stop ranting soon because the time that is supposed to be for posting my fanfics were being used for this.



among all the songs of hey! say! BEST [which is as I noticed all starts with letter S,] I really like Score the most since I love to hear Inoo's voice and Hikaru's rapping is really cool but if we talk about Hey! say! 7 i think the best would be wonderland train since I cried the first time I read the translation~but that song really has a great effect on me. whenever I'm sad I'd always listen to that and Viola! I'm fine again.



but then! I think I need a fanfiction index soon but you know how lazy am I right? Oh I wonder if someone could do one for me, PM me then I'll give you my password then post it on my journal but after you post it I'll change my password okay? can you divide it with One-shots,songfics,drabbles,chaptered fic, rants and other randomness. thanks



okay, I'm being demanding again! oh as if someone would care to do it~I guess I'll just do it on my own when I'm free~~



going to post I am Chinen Saya: Insecurities and Acceptance some time later. ja!