"why is there a blackhole in the toilet?!"

you know what? I am the number one fan of the 'least favorite trio of hey! say! JUMP' I guess most of my friends knew that already. I'm the kind of fan who can be face to face with JUMP but I will not go to Yamada Ryosuke or Chinen Yuri, I'll go straight to Inoo Kei, Okamoto Keito and Morimoto Ryutaro. I loved watching them and as I grew attached to them I saw so many things about them, for one thing. Ryuutan is really cool when he's dancing but since he still lacks this 'aura' that makes him like yamada, he's already cool on his own. and does anyone of you tried to listen to an hsj song and tried her best to look for the trio's boice I always did that! sometimes I can hear sometimes I cannot, but still knowing that they're at least humming or dancing while smiling makes me happy. And you Morimoto Ryutaro has a very important part in my life. The moment I learned about this certain band called hey! say! JUMP, I thought they were like just any other then I saw this Ryutaro Morimoto who has the same age as mine and since then I grew more attached to him knowing that 'I have a connection to that band' even though it's just age-wise.




Ryuu-chan...gomen ne, but I'm really pissed. I was crying the moment nin-nin nee-chan texted me saying that there's something wrong with you. I called her immediately and when I learned the reason I was just....'sh*t, what now?' I really don't know then.....I'm broken.


Ryuu-chan, you really shouldn't have done that. Whatever happens, it was a lesson learned ne? I'll always support you!!don't you know that I'm older than you? before I always told my friends that I don't like guys younger than me, but you are an exemption to the rule cause there are times that I'm head over heels in love with you.so as your older sister! realize your mistakes and don't hate the world because of that, grow into something good out of a bad event. I was pissed because I believe that you did that wanting to prove that you're not a kid anymore, I was pissed because you let your emotions rule you, I was pissed because I really like you and that I knowing that you're hurting right now, I was pissed because I know that you don't want to hurt us and your bandmates and I was pissed because I can do nothing but pray.




Knowing that my 'badluck' could have an effect on this issue..maybe I should really stop loving cheerful people.